Thursday, February 9, 2012

When the Parade Passes By....

I've come to the conclusion that the only hospital you can get a restful stay in is rehab.

Since yesterday, my room has been a revolving parade of doctor-visitors and hospital personal. Don't get me wrong; it's nice to feel important but when one sleeps in 45-minute increments, the last thing I am is pleasant. Truthfully, I'm not always pleasant on a full night of sleep, so obviously this is intolerable. I kid you not: yesterday an hour did not go by that someone wanted to talk to me about prescription meds, my mental state, my religious state, my symptoms, and my feelings.

Eventually my oncologist told everyone to go away and let me take a nap. Bless her.

Last night b/c of all the fluids I'm on through chemo, I was up every 30 to 45 minutes. Eventually at 5:30 a.m. I gave up and watched "Murder She Wrote" instead of trying to sleep. And then vitals started. Every two hours. And more talking about meds.

And then I got chewed out when I wasn't hungry. And the doctor told me not to take naps.

Yes, I am bitching today. I'm tired and crabby and waiting for Saturday night/Sunday morning to get released, which I am looking forward to of all things.

Before then though, I have to learn to give myself injections, and my head started itching, which according to my doc means my hair will probably start falling out sooner rather than later.

I'm thinking of an Emma Watson pixie cut and some stunning stilletos. Cancer's no reason to lose one's sense of style.

I've also developed a craving for bologna sandwiches and cheesesticks. Not very Emma Watson, but nothing's perfect. I can't decide if it's classier than all the pudding I'm eating...


  1. Rach - I know this is a crazy trip that you are on - but I have to say, I DO love your spin on it. :-) You are incredibly strong (and not just in the sense that you beat up all the doctors on your floor at once!) & I know you come out on top lady! You're allowed to be tired & cranky & cantankerous... anyone who has something to say about it can just go.... away! LoL ;-) Know that you have lots of people who love you & are pulling for you! XOXO

    PS - Waiting to see that BA bruise! haha

  2. I am thinking about you and praying for you all the time, Rachel!!! I certainly know that you can make it through this~its just going to be bumpy and not much fun some of the time! One interesting thing if you do lose your hair--when it grows back it may be different! Mom's was curly for a while, which was pretty cool :) Please let me know if there is anything I can do for you. I love you!!!!